I spent the day babysitting my niece and nephew today. I had a lot of fun with the 4 (five, if my husband counts and he really should) kids. At one point Boo picked up this barrette, she held it on top of her head and fake screeched “Oh no, aaah aaah eeee yike!” Freaking kid. I think she was making fun of me….
I spent all day yesterday and most of the day today cleaning, rearranging and throwing crap out. Then I spent the rest of the day just waiting for my husband to get home so that his vacation can officially begin.
I get to sleep in tomorrow, woo hoo!
“It’s hard being visible, so I’ve made myself invisible.” -Danielle Steel
“What delights us in visible beauty is the invisible.” -Marie von Ebner-Eschenbach
“The moment one gives close attention to any thing, even a blade of grass, it becomes a mysterious, awesome, indescribably magnificent world in itself.” -Henry Miller
And it’s so hard to do and so easy to say.
But sometimes – sometimes,
you just have to walk away – walk away.
Hold me now I need to feel relief
Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I’ll let this go
And find a reason I’ll hold on to
I’m so ashamed of defeat
And I’m out of reason to believe in me
I’m out of trying to get by
I honestly hate this photo but it is what it is. It’s one of those times where you have an idea and you just can’t get it to work on the computer the way it does in your head. I gave up and this is what I was left with. So… yeah.
And I am never real;
it is just a sketch in me.
And everything I made is trite
and cheap
and a waste
of paint,
of tape,
of time.
*Note* Those are lyrics.. not something that I wrote. I’m actually quite happy still (aside from being annoyed with the photo!).
Kent and I spent most of the day alone together. My mom had the kids and we were going to go to a movie but instead Kent just kept driving. We ended up in our old neighborhood, which I sorely miss sometimes. I would LOVE to move back there someday. We walked the tracks, went to our favorite old store (where I got a Slush Puppy, woo hoo!), we sat in the park that we used to take midnight walks to (and I discovered that the bench there is green – who knew?!), and we even stopped into the schoolyard to swing for awhile. It was such a great day, one that I will remember (and treasure) for the rest of my life – so much more relaxing than a movie theater. It brought back a lot of old feelings and reminded me of why I fell in love with him in the first place. I felt more alive today than I have in a long LONG time.
I’m having a bad… everything. So I’m boring lately and I apologize. (I’ve been doing a lot of that lately.)
“Ice-cream is exquisite – what a pity it isn’t illegal.” -Voltaire
