me: one photo at a time

“I am a spy in the house of me. I report back from the front lines of the battle that is me. I am somewhat nonplused by the event that is my life.” -Carrie Fisher

I know what you’re thinking: Booooring! And that’s okay. Really.

Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes,
They call me on and on across the universe.
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box,
They tumble blindly as they make their way across the universe.

We watched the rock musical “Across the Universe” tonight. It was sweet in parts and intense in parts and funny in parts. The rest of the time it was all out freaky. Like some kind of insane acid trip. It was set in the sixties, I suppose. :) Anyway, I like it!

So.. I was doing something and I looked at the clock. 11:58pm. Time to grab the camera! Snapped a quick shot of (what else?) my hand and was off to bed.

We went to my in-laws’ house today. I took this early in the morning, not long after we got on the highway. I was NOT looking forward to the trip (what I wrote was intended sarcasm), we rarely have a great time up there. However, this time we did! I was pleasantly surprised. They have snowbanks high enough that you can climb from the top of one onto the roof of their house! It was crazy. They also have a huge hill across the road and we spent the afternoon sledding. I expected it to be a horrible day and it end up being the most fun I’ve had in ages.

“In marriage there are no manners to keep up, and beneath the wildest accusations no real criticism. Each is familiar with that ancient child in the other who may erupt again. We are not ridiculous to ourselves. We are ageless. That is the luxury of the wedding ring.”
-Enid Bagnold

Lately, with all this wedding hoopla going on, I’ve been increasingly thankful for Kent and the way that we decided to handle getting married. What a load of stress a wedding is! All those headaches for months – all for one day! Nooooo thank you. I stressed less about the births of my children, for heaven’s sake!

“The body says what words cannot.”
-Martha Graham

I feel… disgusting.

My best friend is getting married in August. That’s right, August of 2008. They just got engaged and now she wants me to be her Maid of Honor. I was happy enough to accept – she IS my best friend after all. Of 20 years.

So I said that I would and she was coming over today to talk about it and stuff. I snapped this just before she got here, just in case I never got around to taking another one. (And it’s a good thing because I didn’t.)

The thing is… I didn’t realize just how much a Maid of Honor is expected to do. I have never been part of planning a wedding. Or a big party. Or anything. I’m not good at it. Now I have to help plan a wedding (thought I avoided all that hassle by not having one of my own!), a bridal shower and a bachelorette party.

I’m freaking out, people. I don’t think I can do it. It would be one thing if I really knew her boyfriend, but I don’t. Or another if I even knew most of her friends now. But I don’t. I don’t know ANYTHING about the other people in the wedding party….

I’m feeling extremely overwhelmed. I have to plan all this stuff before August! How am I going to DO it all? I’ve never even attended a bridal shower or a bachelorette party. I have only been to 2 “real” weddings in my life and I was only 5 for one of them. I feel like I am going to fail my best friend miserably.

Plus, dammit. The whole family is still sick. At least the sun was shining today.

Best. candy. ever.

I have this song (appropriately) stuck in my head. Technically, I’ve got somebody. But it doesn’t always feel that way.

Another saturday night and I ain’t got nobody
I’ve got some money ’cause I just got paid
Now how I wish I had someone to talk to
I’m in an awful way.